Frankly speaking, i'm a bit sad about Singaporean's attitude.. I was in e bus, n this mother n daughter was pointing @ me toking abt me, thinking im not aware of it.. *faintz* its sooo insulting!!! As a matter of fact, not ALL Singaporeans, a group of them 2 b specific.. It's obvious when someone toks abt u though, they'll b toking @ a moment, another moment, they'll look @ u again. Did they even think i was stupid?! fuckers!!! i'm pretty pissed n yes! i know im not pretty, im fat, big-sized, all of e bads.. so wad?! isit my fault!? mabbe yes partially.. it's not like i wan 2 haf this kinda body or this kinda face or wadever it is.. I know u pple reading it muz b like, "don't worry abt wad ppl say, coz u r who r u!" Yes!! i know.. but somehow, in another part of my heart, it's hurting.. did they even know that i'm tryin my very best already!? NO! they just speak wad they like, n not care abt other pple's feelings! Like wad i read from Yen's blog, "saying someone is fat doesn't make you any thinner, saying someone is stupid doesn't make you any smarter". it's sooo true!! Anyway, its not e 1st time happening 2 me i guess.. haix.. wad's with all e fuss? *screams* i feel like slapping em sometimes!! -.-;;

there're sooo many "if only"s in life!
If only I'm:
- prettier
- slimmer
- richer
- smarter
- smaller-sized
n e list just goes on n on n on n on......
it never ends!!

its still e same old story that ppl will speak, "Don't bother abt wad others say abt u! Coz you're unique n special" or some sorta that shit crap.. But i guess no one can understand how i exactly feel, since ur not me..! n prob hasn't been thru these.. coz since young, i already haf that shape, that physique, that face, that everything!! I wonder if God made e right choice to make me who I am today?! but i guess i shouldn't doubt God, coz he makes everyone unique and special. Prob i'll contribute my wadever usage in the future to come..

how i wish, i could live in a more comfortable n not so competing place.. not having anyone criticising abt u! ur looks! ur dressing! ur wadever that's on u! they just look @ u for who u are! but i guess since this world's sooooo REAL n sooooo EVIL, that will never happen in my life time.. its really sad when u think abt it.. *sighs*

Anyhow, life juz stinks! Seeing hyprocritical pple ard u... ur frens!! some so practical! some so materialistic! its so sad when u realise that u haf such friends.. or more like, u feel sad that they r off these bad n disgusting characters.. i could just go on n on n on, but wad can i do? NOTHING!!! juz live with e truth in life..

If only................